Sunday, October 18, 2009
I am being particularly whining today. Husband left yet again and here I am alone with all four little ones. Might be feeling just a tad lonely these days. It seems that he is always gone. The kids are starting to react and aren't acting their best. So today I am missing some friends that live not so close that I used to spend days at a time with. Husband would call when he got home from work wondering where in the world the kids and I were. I would be surprised that time had passed so quickly, I thought it was mid afternoon maybe! I miss these ladies that time can get lost with, where the kids can play and us ladies chat, sometimes their husbands would get in on the chatting action. Spending the day was never uncomfortable or weird, we were just as comfortable at each others homes as our own. I miss having friends that I could call anytime for anything and it became the most important thing to them. They would drop what they were doing to come to my aide or just listen to me whine about my life. We, that husband of mine, and I were talking about why it has been so much harder lately for him to travel. On him and me and the kids together have been really struggling lately. We decided that it was because before when he would leave we had this whole extra family around. People that loved us like family and we loved them right back. We would spend our days and evenings hanging out, having dinner, chatting the night away. I am not a good friend person. I just am not. You know some people have like a thousand close friends. I am not that person. I really don't do the whole causal friend thing. If you can't invest I just don't have time, if you are do busy with your own stuff, enjoy yourself. I am past the stage in life where I need friends just to have them. So don't call me whenever you need a favor and be no where to be found when I need one. Grumpy ME!!! Surprised that anyone would want to be my forever friend? Me too sometimes, but then I remember these wonderful women that even though we are miles apart still drop their whole day if I call upset or need advice. So ladies I love you and miss you something bad today. Makes me want to drag my exhausted body out to the car and drive to see one of you. Really I did think about taking the kids out of school and making a trip. My question for the universe today, how many of these forever friends are you due in a lifetime? Just wanting to know if I have hit my limit and better stop wishing. I might try to control the universe, or at least know what is going to happen.